Have you ever seen a homeless person on the street and thought, “Wow, that guy is an amazing manifester?” No? I would imagine many would likely answer yes if the question involved someone driving a Ferrari and living in a palatial mansion. That’s because we don’t often consider that we create all of “this.” The good and the not-so-good. So it isn’t just the good stuff that’s the measuring stick for our manifesting “magic.” It’s how elaborate and potent the creation is. So if someone is so saturated with their negative beliefs, those wicked beliefs from childhood, that they manifest homelessness, I’d say that’s some potent manifesting. Of course, he probably wasn’t creating that experience intentionally. What fueled it was likely or mostly from the energy of his subconscious. He’s unintentionally creating the way most of us do most of the time. Even so, his energy (thoughts/beliefs) are clearly powerful. He’s really Donald Trump, just on the other end of the spectrum. Imagine what this person would have manifested if he’d been raised with beautiful, positive messages of self-worth, love and encouragement.
The fact is, we’re all pretty amazing manifesters. The problem is we do it unintentionally via those icky old false beliefs from the past, especially our childhood. The only way to water down that subconscious energy is to regularly process our emotions, and consciously focus on our intentions, what we desire. And endeavor to sweep our minds clean of the don’t-wants. Not so easy to do, because they’re usually in there having a wild party with fear, rocket fuel for our creations. As is joy.
Now here’s the thing, we’re never going to rid ourselves of the so-called “negative” emotions. And we shouldn’t want to, they are part of us, and we wouldn’t have them if we didn’t need them. They enrich our experience in this reality. They have a good side and a bad side, all of them. Just like Tarot cards, just like everything. They’re like fire, it can be healing or destructive. It’s all in how we use it. We respect fire, and we should also respect and embrace ALL of our emotions. In denying them, repressing them, dishonoring them, we fuel self-hatred. What are we without emotions? The living dead. Again, they are integral to our being.
I was raised in one of those horrible childhood environments, and I’ve wrangled with the wicked energy of it my entire adult life. Along the way, drawing from that energy—the only energy I knew—I’ve manifested many hellish scenarios. But even in my infancy of becoming aware of our innate manifesting ability and purpose, I created some pretty cool things as well. I often say that despite my childhood being purely hell, my adult life has been hell sprinkled with heaven. At times, a lot of heaven… Some of my creations have been truly phenomenal–many “dreams” that came true. My first home, purchased as a single person on a mediocre income…a very nice, three-bedroom ranch-style home on a few acres. An amazing creation considering my having been saturated with poverty energy as a child… Alas, but understandably, my “dream home” was short-lived.
Another of my amazing manifestations was when I was given the opportunity to move to the West Coast a while back. I’d always dreamed of living in Oregon. The Universe definitely facilitated the move in many beyond-belief ways. It was so blatant that I moved there sight unseen—no job or home lined up. I knew not one soul there. I had lucked into a month-long house-sitting job… Can you imagine hiring a house-sitter that lives 2200 miles away? Depending on this person to be at your home in time for you to leave for an important trip? She did. After only one phone call with me.
Most of the people living in the small college town in Oregon where I moved, I discovered, were self-employed. There weren’t many jobs. I had to learn fast how to be an entrepreneur. I was very sheepish about it, and not surprisingly, I ran out of money pretty quickly. With no income and no job prospects, my first concern was how to pay the rent. When you literally have no money, you live moment to moment… So what came to me was to print a flyer with all my skills, and post it on a bulletin board at one of the health food stores where I shopped. The board was located outside in front of the store. Bulletin boards are very popular there (so many self-employed ones), this one was always plastered with flyers.
I don’t remember how long it had been from the day I posted my flyer (a few days, maybe a week?), before getting “the call.” I do remember I was seriously concerned about my situation. An understatement. I know the rent was due within a day or two. The caller said that he had my flyer and that he wanted to hire me for some home organizing. I was thrilled. But this is what really got me. He said the only reason he saw my flyer is that he was walking out of the health food store, and a flyer blew off the bulletin board and landed in front of him. He was going to be nice and put it back on the board. So he picked it up and casually read it in the process of putting it back on the board. It was my flyer. He said he’d been considering another person for the job, but he felt this had been a “sign.” After our first meeting, lasting maybe an hour or so, he handed me $400 cash. He didn’t ask for a receipt, and he didn’t even know where I lived. I paid the rent that day…
That is one of a plethora of similar experiences that I’ve had over the years. Those are heavenly moments… I’ve manifested that “scrambling to survive” situation so many times in my life. Given that I have no family to speak of, I don’t use credit cards, and have battled serious health issues my entire adult life…pretty unbelievable that I’m “still standing.” But that wicked childhood energy continues to hang on like a pit bull. A childhood home filled with the energy of poverty, struggles, abuse and neglect—not easy to shake. Right now it seems our whole world seems to be saturated with such energy. So many of us sopping with fear, wrangling with our demons. Maybe it’s our last big battle with them. I hope we win.
After years of doing pretty well financially, feeling that I’d finally drop-kicked my poverty demons for good, I’m now right back where I was above when I posted that flyer. Albeit a little stronger and wiser.
I’ve done my Tarot readings as a sideline for several years, all starting with the above-mentioned experience back in Oregon. I feel sure the Universe threw me into the “deep water” of the above-mentioned experience so I’d be forced to become my own authority, and to follow what brings me joy. The Tarot brings me joy, but the money wasn’t following fast enough for survival. So I manifested a really great job, and the Tarot reading was put on the backburner for the most part. But a while ago, like so many others, I lost my “regular” job (after 4 years there) due to the economy. So now I’m once again scrambling to survive. My life-long battle with illness and (for the last few years) having no vehicle are the real culprits. Even so, once again a manifestation fueled by that wicked poverty-consciousness issue.
So of course I asked my Tarot how to overcome this situation. And the answer came that I have to give to get. Which brings up yet another issue with those of us who reek of poverty-consciousness. We tend to cling tightly to whatever makes us feel safe. Uh, that would be everything—physical and metaphysical, our stuff and old habits…. And that most assuredly gums up our manifesting magic. But I have greatly improved over the years. I no longer cling to “my stuff,” no longer a “material girl,” and I regularly give items away to friends and Goodwill. Shedding the materialism is a joy ultimately. Painful at first, but then the realization comes … Freedom.
So this article is my attempt at stirring that “giving” energy. I have, admittedly, been stingy for a while now, about sharing my metaphysical experiences—of which I have many. So this article tweaks that issue a bit, and hopefully others will resonate with what I’ve shared here.
Additionally, I want to further stoke that giving energy via my Tarot readings. I’m offering them on a name-your-price basis for a limited time. This offer isn’t mentioned on my website. Simply choose the reading of your choice from my Home Page at www.TarotwithLove.com and then use the “Donate” button to pay the amount that you decide on. I do ask that you donate at least $20 if you have more than 2 questions. I will also do a one-card animal totem reading for you and calculate your Life Path number, which will reflect your Tarot archetype.
Giving is a powerful part of our manifesting magic. A very important part. That’s because others aren’t really separate from us. When we withhold from others, we’re really being stingy with ourselves. So when we give to others, we actually are giving to ourselves. A circle of empowerment.