I know it’s been forever since I’ve written a post to this blog – but there have been a couple of good reasons.
As the year began to come to a close, I started to relax into my "new" life and I guess finally allowing myself to relax brought along with it self realisation and a good deal of shock and stress. Although on the scale of things this year hasn’t been that bad, for me it’s been the hardest year of my life. Since the day my boyfriend and I split up after over eight years, it’s been a roller coaster ride of change. I feel as though I’ve left my old life behind me. I moved into a new house, bought all new furniture, found myself a bunch of new friends, discovered blogging, yoga and meditation, changed my job and dreamt up a whole new set of plans for the future 
It’s all been great but also a bit of a shock to me, someone who’s normally used to everything being pretty ordinary.
I’m still waiting for my life to even out a bit so I can finally relax into all of this new change. Over the past couple of weeks I started to feel all the stress start to emerge that I’d been suppressing for the past nine months or so. This was a massive shock. I started to lay awake at night then wake up early in the morning, and feel irritable, moody, depressed, stressed and anxious literally all of the time. Having a really bad bout of PMT and a full moon around the same time didn’t help things much either. Every morning I would wake up a burst into tears until I pulled myself together and did some yoga.
All this stress and negative emotion has been incredibly bad for my skin. It’s made me break out really, really badly. I even had to start covering all the mirrors in my house because I started to panic so much about it. Yes, I did feel like I was turning into a crazy lunatic for a while there.
Over the past couple of days it’s gotten a lot easier. The mood disorders have reduced by a lot and I’ve stopped getting any new pimples, but unfortunately my skin will take a while to heal. In the meantime I’m trying to just laugh about it and know that it’s healing and that it will get better.
The good thing about all of this is I’ve done a heap of research on acne. I now feel like I’m some sort of acne expert. Give me any acne case and I bet I can tell you exactly why that person gets it and what they can do to help heal it. Sounds odd when I’m suffering from this condition myself but dang I’ve tried so hard to heal it holistically and unfortunately, with the amount of stress that I felt in my life from Mr Ex and my split, from him meeting someone else, then from him moving in with that person - the only cure I have is to give it time. Yuck for me.
What I’ve realised, is that a lot of people get acne for different reasons. Especially for women over the age of 25, moderate to severe acne is most often a completely different cause to that of men and teenagers or even young adults. Additionally, the way acne is treated needs to vary from person to person. Acne treatment for teenagers is not the same for adults.
You’ll probably hear me talk a lot about my acne in future posts, and I’ll be compiling all my research and knowledge and producing a series of books all about acne which will be made available once I’m 100% clear and confident of the best acne treatment solution. Acne is a horrible, horrible condition that brings embarrassment and self esteem issues along with it. I want to do everything I can to help other sufferers because I know just how awful it is. I know because I’m living it now!
Oh, and Merry Christmas! I hope everyone had a wonderful Xmas day and ate lots of yummy food.
Fran
Fran Kerr is the founding editor of High on Health. To cure your acne, sign up to Fran's FREE acne cure mini-course or download her latest how to guide, Eat Away Your Acne.
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Hi Fran,
That’s really interesting that all your stress has come to the surface now. Has it been worsened by Christmas and the bad eating that comes with it? Or did it happen before that? Sometimes I think a New Year can bring up emotion. My hubby and I almost always have a huge barnie the week before New Year - like we’re clearing up our emotions or something before starting afresh.
I have this weird feeling 2008 is going to be a great year for everyone.
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